A bit of explanation...

I apologize for the sporadic nature of my posting during 2010. It seems this year was to be a big year of change for me and has really sort of sucked away a lot of my time. I have found it difficult to find the time to blog with my time being divided so many ways. Figuring out what my new "normal" will be has sort of been an ongoing event and seems to be ever evolving. Just when I think I might be settling back into some sort of routine, something else shifts it again.

My mother's passing in May was the first big event that will forever change me. Some days are more of a struggle than others, but I am trying to keep moving forward. The grieving process is a weird, weird thing. Things will come up out of nowhere and set me into a period of really missing her. Knowing that it will most likely be a very, very long time before I see her again is sometimes very overwhelming.


My Mom and Dad a few years ago


Eight weeks to the day after seeing my Mom alive for the last time we had to put our sweet kitty to sleep. She was a huge part of our lives and I miss her sweet face and her gentle nature so very much. I long to just let her sit in my lap, which she loved to do, and pet the soft patch of black fur on the top of her head. I want to see her snuggling with Aeris in the way that they used to. She was 13 years old and had been with us for the last 11.


Sasha in May


Barely two and a half weeks later, I brought home a new kitten, Tifa. It was not in the plan, we were content to just have one kitty, but she was pitiful and needed a home. As it turns out she is quite wild and drives Aeris nuts most of the time. She is a bit on the aggressive side. I am hoping that we can teach her not to be so aggressive and that it is mostly a kitten stage that she is going through. Don't get me wrong she can be sweet, too, but it doesn't last for long. She is just trying to play, but she plays very rough. Lets just say that she and Aeris are NOT best buddies. Aeris will growl and hiss at her, swat her, maybe wrestle with her a little, and walk away. Aeris will sometimes even growl just when Tifa comes near her and doesn't do anything. I wish that they could be buddies like Sasha and Aeris were. Right now, I'd settle for Tifa to just leave Aeris alone.


Tifa


Any kind of sewing this summer has really been a challenge. I just did not have the desire for quite a while, and just as I started to regain some interest, we got Tifa. As anyone who has ever had a kitten knows, they are just about as much work as keeping up with a toddler. They are into everything all the time. Sewing during the last 6 weeks has been VERY challenging. I keep trying, but I feel like it takes me forever to finish a project. My sewing room has been in complete disarray for weeks because that is where we shut her up when we are gone and at night. I had to put anything that she could get hurt with into an area not accessible to her. So, that meant shoving things in drawers and cabinets where they didn't belong, so now I can't find anything without spending a half an hour looking for it. I had a box with quilt batting scraps in it, she proceeded to pull all of them out and had them strewn all about the room. She managed to roll my exercise ball that I sit on behind the door to the room at one point. I spent the afternoon yesterday trying to make some sense of it all. She wants to pounce on the needle of my machine when I am sewing, eat every crumb of scrap I drop in the floor, and attack anything that is dangling over the edge of the ironing board.

All of that to say, that I am hoping that over the next few months that things will become easier and settle into a new "normal" for me, but I can't guarantee it. I hope to be able to post more often, but the truth is, I just don't know how things are going to all pan out yet. I have a lot that I would like to share with you all, I just need to get myself back into the groove of things. Thank you to those of you who still check in for bearing with me. Hopefully you will have something interesting to read soon instead of my babble. :)

1 comment:

Taryn said...

I so know what you mean about the new kitten. If I try to do anything while the kids are awake, they get into things I'm trying to work on. If I wait until they go to bed, then the kitten is attacking everything I try to work on. It's almost maddening. LOL